choosing God

Today I just kept thinking, "God, I wanted ______. I still want ______. And you're not letting me have ______. You're taking ______ away from me." But underneath all the feelings of hurt and unfairness and unmet desire there is a steady peace. Peace that choosing God over anything else will always prove to be the best choice.

But gosh, it hurts sometimes.



  1. i can't wait to talk about this with you some more next week!

  2. I'm sorry that you need to be experiencing whatever is causing those just-plain-crummy feelings. Hopefully God eases your heart about it soon.

    There's a lot of truth in this post. "Why won't _____ just work? Why can't _____ be useful? How come _____ still isn't going right?" That's what's been going through my head a lot lately. It's a tough thing to think about why He brings us to situations that only seem to hurt. We know they're for a reason, but often wish He'd reveal it. I wish I had that answer.

    1. Scott, I feel you. Answers sound so good right now. But I just have to keep reminding myself that God always has a better plan than the one I come up with. He's telling me "no" to what I think I want because his way is better. It's so hard to see that when it's happening though, because we don't know the end result and we don't have the answers. Bahh. So hard. Our vision is so limited!! I will be praying for you in your hurtful situation.

    2. Initially I came back to addendum my post. I've asked, sarcastically, "Why should anything work for me?" but as a legitimate question, it's deeply flawed. I don't think we're promised such an easy time in this life. What we should be looking towards is the reward in the next life and God in this life.

      "Our vision is so limited!!" Amen. What are you going through that's not good? Or was the post purposely vague? Either way I'll definitely be praying for you in it.